Pause

I usually stay until night in the university but is not because of my classes, most of them finish at 1pm. 

I suppose it is a habit to walk around the campus, maybe study in the library, read some books, .,, I don't know how but there's always something to do.

Today was the exception.

I was tired (because I couldn't sleep well yesterday), pissed off (because I arrived late eventhough I woke up early) and sad (because it's winter and seeing the gray sky just discourages me).

So I decided to go home immediately.

As soon as I was inside the bus, I put on my earphones, selected a pop song and turned the volume up until I couldn't hear anything but the music.

I though that was the only way to relax in that place.

After a few minutes, a guy with a guitar got into the bus. He said he was a music student and that he needed some money.

The first thing that came up to my mind was this: hey!! If you were an old lady or maybe a little boy or a mother with many childen, then I'd understand. BUT you're young, why don't you look up for a job instead of waiting for charity?

So I continued listening to my music and I didn't look at the guy until he started to play a song.

I pressed the pause button but I kept wearing my earphones. And I listened carefully to his song. It was a song I've never heard before. All I can remember is that it was about people around the world. That everybody might be from different places but we go to the same place.

That was very deep somehow.

To be honest, I didn't understand the meaning of the song (I tried to relate it to God, since he is our father) but I liked it anyway. It was a soft song and the guy was a good singer as well.

At first impression it may seemed that I wasn't paying attention at all because I didn't take off the earphones during alll the song.  That's why he was very surprised when I gave him some coins.

Actually, he received many coins from different people, even a monk gave him something. It wasn't money, I think it was a card.

Once he finished collecting money, he said to everybody: thank you very much, I've been doing this also to share my music with people. I do my best to transmit a good feeling while I sing and while I play the guitar.

In that moment, I realized that there is a pause button for everything, and that I could pressed it whenever I want... to relax.... to appreciate art....to listen carefully... to just do nothing. And it wouldn't be bad. On the contrary, it helps to keep a balance in life.

And now, I feel peace. I don't regret to take a break (eventhough if it is just a couple of hours), and I'm happy.